You are so full of presence that you can fill the whole universe
with your presence and there is no need for anybody." -osho
Aloneness...it is both freeing and complex.
the majority of our society, or our culture puts much weight into our connection to others. we tend to define ourselves not by who we actually are, but by how we are perceived by others. this can lead to immense suffering when the others do not experience or interpret our own being in the way in which we believe we are portraying ourselves. Even the portrayal is a falsehood. it is like being an actor.
only when we are able to be alone, to be content with our own being, free of distractions, free of tonics, free of all but our ability to simply be, can we become authentic & truly move into a oneness of being with the divine, with cosmos.
it is so easy to get caught up in how we relate to others. we judge ourselves not by the actual feedback that others give us, but by the perceived feedback - our own neurosis, our own self degrading mindsets. and by mindset i mean a collection of ideas about self which have been programmed into us, whether by our own doing or by outside influence. it does not matter who it is which is doing the programming, only that it is completely altering the actuality of what is happening all around us.
so often we believe we know the motivations of others. we refuse to believe that there may be an underlying complexity, that the other may be working through their own journey, as they most definitely are. we get caught up in judging the journey of another based on our own journey, but they are not the same path, nor can they ever be.
we fool ourselves often, and on occasion, we do find resonance which seems to be of a higher order of communication - those feelings and intuitions that happen without any words being spoken.
we must be wise in recognizing the difference, knowing when we are making things up & when they are being presented to us authentically.
it is difficult to do this, it takes time, practice, and an openness to the other that many are afraid of.
it is a surrendering to life. it is a move beyond rationality.
don't get me wrong, it is not a matter of dropping the rational, but merely moving beyond it.
in a sense, one could almost say that intuition is the integration of rationality to such an extent that it no longer must be thought about, it simply IS. at that stage, the mind does not have to do the work, but rather, the heart does it. feeling becomes paramount.
one should follow the tingles, the intuitions, the butterflies that come to us & tickle our insides.
we cannot always express these feelings in the ways in which we may desire to due to the situation, cultural constraints, etc., yet we should never deny them, as they are an intrinsic part of our exploration of ourselves and the world at large.
it is once again simply a matter of awareness, of witnessing the self, of allowing every aspect of life to be a seed for new growth.
it can be a lot of fun. it can also lead to pain.
but it is the only way to discover our own truths.
i want to make a shirt that says:
"Is your knowledge experiential or are you simply a repeater?"