Whenever you go astray from the potential, you remain mediocre.
The whole society consists of mediocre people for the simple reason
that nobody is what he was destined to be — he is something else." - osho
It is so easy to get lost in mediocrity. I am steeped in it most of the time, not making any movement or effort towards reaching my potential.
I do a lot of inner work, yet I seem to have difficulty transfering that into the outer world.
Maybe I am afraid of my destiny. it seems to be so absurd. So over the top & crazy.
Grandiose in scale, at times it has verged on the messianic.
how to express, how to be, how to relate, how to not let arrogance or egotism overcome what could otherwise be an immensely beautiful transition.
all of these are huge concerns of mine. hence, i am obsessed with this "egolessness".
only by understanding & being egoless will there be a state where my being overflows in the way in which i feel that it is destined to.
normal, everyday life is so meaningless to me. so much of it disinterests me.
it could be that i am simply ready for a new worklife.been workin the same job for much too long, and it is making me feel increasingly unfulfilled.
I think that i ahve decided that my music should be a main focus right now. the further i move into it, the more fulfilling it becomes.
I've also been having ideas of comedic expression...sketch comedy, ala Mr. Show or UCB...with a mystical edge
gotta start writin ideas...
Eventually i wish to build a community, where i do not know.
and no, i don't wanna start a cult for all of you that were wonderin! haha!
the thought of a new kind of commune or self sustaining community is interesting.
so many unbelievably creative ideas have been spawned over the last century.
technology is even moving into an age of sustainability, however slowly.
if we'd simply get over the profit motive, the second third world countries would not have to work throught the horribly savage early steps of the industrial & energy revolutions.
we need to learn to share.
ok..i feel like i'm simply babbling at this point so that's it for today.